Life as I define it

I finally decided to get a life. I went to the office this morning to submit my signed resignation letter. It's just kinda awkward arriving to the office and not being able to go through the turnstile door because my access card had already been deactivated since last week. The one place I feel so comfortable next to home suddenly became a stranger to me. Since I was just there to process my clearance, I had an escort - a house guard,actually - who followed me around from a distance wherever I go. I never even had the chance to finally say goodbye to my QA team and to my dearest friends.

I was still having mixed emotions when I got home. I am sad that the people I have come so comfortable working with and the friendship I have developed with some are now so distant.

My work was putting food on my table but I didn't get to be a real mom and a real wife because of it. I always go home tired. I had no time to fix dinner or review my daughter's lessons with her. In the morning, I had to rush to go to the office again since I live 52 kilometers away which is an hour ride on the bus. I can't wake up much earlier to be able to fix breakfast for my daughter either or to fix her hair before she goes to school. She loves it when her hair is being fixed by mommy. I can only do that if I'd take a leave of absence and it only happens once or twice a month. I also had to take a vacation leave for a day whenever it is her exam week so I can have an extra time to review the exam pointers with her. Thankfully, she always place second on her class when the exam results come out.

I love to cook and make a business out of it. It's even lovelier whenever I do it for my family. Now, I am finally doing it. I would heave a sigh of satisfaction when I am able to finish cooking and ready the table by the time my hubby gets home from his class. I get the natural high whenever my customers would compliment my food and even more when they wonder out loud what I put on my recipes. But most of all, I love the opportunity it gives me to work side by side with my hubby. For the first time, we're working together like real partners. We function in our new business like clockwork. We don't plan what to do. We just know instinctively where to be and what to work on especially when it's rush hour. Sometimes, he would panic when the orders would come in bulk. He tends to burn some of the grilled stuff. I would just gently remind him to calm down because the food will still take it's own sweet time to cook despite his panic attack.LOL! Sure, there are days where only a handful of customers would arrive but, thankfully, it only happens once a week. So far, so good.

Some people, especially my mother, don't understand why I quit. We all need jobs, yes, but it isn't the be-all and end-all of everything once you decide to pack and leave your cubicle. There are still other ways to earn a living. I just decided to take one which allows me to be closer to home and to my family. For me, they are my be-all and end-all.

I got a life. It isn't a life that others would call but it's what life is by my own definition.